Right about when the whole global COVID-19 pandemic started, I was just getting back in the groove on my YouTube channel. My daughter’s wedding was over, and I was getting my mojo back.
But shortly after, the pandemic happened, and I honestly, I felt really guilty posting videos. I don’t know why. I just did.
Even as I would be filming the videos, I just felt guilty for doing something I love when there were so many other people that seemed to either be suffering, or terrified of this virus.
And then when the lock downs started, I felt like I was gloating because I have my horses home with me. And My intention with my videos, as well as my blog has been to help people, or inspire them. It just felt wrong to look all happy, and talking about horses during such a yucky time.
I Needed A Break
And honestly, I needed a break. I have been making videos for the last couple of years with very minimal lapses in my upload schedule.
So one day, in the middle of a two part video, I decided I wasn’t going to upload for a while. And I have to tell you, it’s been awesome.
I have been riding more, and focusing on myself more, and I don’t feel guilty about it at all. In fact, I think I’m happier.
I have been spending more time on my blog too, which has been fun. I love writing almost as much as I love to ride.
I got a camera lens I have wanted for YEARS and started playing with it.
I am seriously having fun with this lens. I wish I would have pulled the trigger and bought this thing YEARS ago.
I can finally understand why so many people use this lens! This is a Nikon 70-200mm F 2.8 lens and I LOVE it. Can you tell? If you love taking pictures as much as I do, and you are on the fence about spending so much money on a lens, I promise, it’s worth it! And you can find them used for less than $1,000. That’s what I did.
And I realized something. I don’t need to upload 2 videos every week. I have a lot to say when it comes to being a Budget Equestrian, but I don’t have to make over 100 videos a year to prove my point.
Getting Back At It
And while I haven’t been putting up new videos, I have still been filming. I still write down video ideas in my notebooks, and take pictures for potential thumbnails. I’m still doing what I love to do. But I want to take my time, and create something awesome. Not just throw up a video because I feel like I have too.
I am plotting my return, and the first video I have to put up is the second video in the 2 part video I made about building gates.
I just want to refilm setting up the gates in a course, and out in my arena to give the full effect of the jumps. It’s one thing to set up jumps in my driveway.
But a completely different effect can be achieved by setting them up, in an arena, ready to be used. So that will be my first video.
When will it be coming out? Soon I think, but I don’t have a specific date in mind.
Why I Took a Break From YouTube
So that’s why I took a break from YouTube. But I do miss it. And I want to make videos again. I want to share my ideas with others. And I want to get better at making videos.
I think this break has been a great thing for me to reset, and replenish my video making mojo, and I can’t wait to get going again!